Geekster's Whimsy: A History

Once upon a time there was a girl who totally kept to herself. She had a terribly active imagination but very little available to her to engage it. Until one fateful day, in 2002, when she saw a friend playing the most beautiful game she had ever seen....Final Fantasy X.

So amazing. So gorgeous. So. Life. Changing.

I'm totally serious.

I'm a geek anomaly. Zelda: A Link to the Past and Mario Bros. were the first video games I remember playing. I never approached the end of Mario and I only watched dear old Dad beat Zelda. I think at the ripe age of 9 I managed to make it to Turtle Rock in the Dark World before I relinquished the controller to him.

And that's where it ended.

For some reason the video game fairy missed our abode after the Super Nintendo. I lived in a video game-less abyss until my senior year in high school. That was like....10 long years of severe childhood normalcy! (Looking back, I think that's why I barely remember my childhood.) I had no idea that this wonderful, colorful, magical world still existed. To this day, I still mourn the loss of what potentially could have been this great nerdtastic relationship I could have had with my imagination back when it was in its prime of imagining. Before it got bogged down with bills, and hurricanes, and betrayal. But I digress.

It was just before winter break in my Senior year when I saw Final Fantasy X being played for the first time. It was the beginning of the ending and I was sworn to secrecy because I was seeing it before my friends girlfriend. I had no clue, whatsoever, what was going on....but something inside of me clicked. Like I knew I had to somehow form this unbreakable bond with this video game.

It spoke to me.

And like some chance encounter with the love of your life before you know them at the train station, I didn't see it again for 2 years.

In between those 2 long years I was reintroduced to this super awesome world of crazy awesome stories. I played bits of Final Fantasy VIII (which I still need to beat) and most of Final Fantasy IX (I couldn't beat this one yet cause it had to go back to major video...but I eventually did!). And I was completely enamored with this series. The amount of time and effort that went into creating these stories and the depth of the main characters. I mean whoa.

I had finally managed to get a hold of Final Fantasy X again and I played it non stop. NON STOP. Like I dove in head first, with no strategy guide (I finally got a hold of one by the time I got to the Cloister of Ice-thank goodness...those Cloisters were killer), and went until I could no more. The FMV's were beautiful....I totally cried like a baby when Yuna and Tidus kissed at Lake Macalania...seriously my favorite part....and that video was stunning.

epicness via Final Fantasy Wikia

And the ending.....I STILL watch the ending of that game. 11 years (holy crap....old....) later.

Imposhibble! No seriously. It's true.

The amazing part? I'm just as excited to play the HD remake as I was the original. I get to experience that magic all over again and retreat back to a happy time when video game developers still believed in an awesome story line with the perfect soul wrenching music to go along with it.

But seriously. All things considered, I'm still super new to this geeky world I've rightfully immersed myself in. I may have been late to the game, and I might be totally going backwards as far as video games go. (comic books are another story...I'm having trouble latching onto those...) But here I am. I have the cosplays to prove it!

(trying and failing to find the original to link back to....blarg)

(PS: Shame on you for no watermark!)

(PPS: That's totally me. And that wig weighed a ton. Another blog post!)

The Madness Needs To Start Somewhere

Good day!

This intro is seriously a year and a half in the making. I'm so horrible at introductions. Whether it's been introducing myself, writing the first few pages of a novel, or even the first paragraph of a term paper....I've always sucked at them. I'll sit and stare at the screen and completely agonize over every single syllable. I'll write, erase, rewrite, erase, and then pull my hair out. Case in point: I've written about 4 different introductions for this blog, and each has been deleted.

I know. Crazy. Well I am a little absurd. 

I have also changed the topic of this blog at least 2 or 3 different times. At first it was going to be just costuming....building, researching, show off-ing, etc. Then as I realized I do a ton of other crafty things, so I should probably include that as well! That was a big delete again. I decided that if I can't keep a topic around for a few months, then it wasn't what this cyber thought bubble was supposed to be about. 

Then there was nothing. For like 7 months this thing sat all alone. Forgotten. Poor wittle bloggy.

But, with the help of my man and the little nerdy thing growing in my belly, I've made a decision. 

Being pregnant, with a girl no less, terrifies me. There, I've admitted it. I was a horribly completely un-confident girl growing up, thusly turning into a horribly completely un-confident woman, and I'm terrified our daughter will go down the same path because I don't know any better. I want her to grow up comfortable in her own skin, with positively strong female role models to look up to. I even went so far as to searching on Pinterest "how to raise Hermione Granger", though nothing came up. Sad, I know.

We want to make sure we expose her to all the gloriously awesome nerdy things the world has to offer, without her feeling like an outcast. We want her to experience comic books, cosplay, really awesome video games, and amazing novels that leave you with the biggest book hangovers ever. 

So here I'll keep it all, and stuff for me, too. As she continues to grow in my belly, you'll know about her. You'll know about my projects, the costumes I just finished making and the ones I'm getting ready to start. All of my other geeky projects and just some general geek stuff (like the Sony Press Conference at E3 OMG!). You'll ride along with me as we try to raise a strong, confident, intelligent, geeky daughter in a world that still puts so much emphasis on body shape and  beauty. 

I need to put it all down somewhere and old school journaling just never did it for me. I like to know that people are out there reading and caring...if only in my imagination.

I admit I'm vain. Moving on. 

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I'm just as bad at ending things as I am starting them....

I'm off to eat ice cream and cookie dough! <3 div="">